Becoming Me and Myself

I’m reading a book that challenges you to figure out your passion/dream/goal and then make a plan. Making a plan can seem daunting but the suggestion is to write down the 5 major steps that I would need to do to make this happen, starting from where I am right now. and Then break down each step into tasks and deadline. Somehow this seems attainable to me. I love the number 5 though – it is literally my favourite number. (or is it numerically my favourite number…).

Anyway…

My dream is to have healthy meals ready and available for my family for breakfasts, lunches and suppers. I know that this is a requirement – I have kids so I have to feed them – but I want to feed them better and consistently better. More whole foods. More fruits and vegetables and more homeade and healthier.

1. Every weekend plan out meals for the week
2. Make muffins and baking available every Sunday
3. Invite da-boys to participate to make a supper once a week
4. Children make their own lunches every night
5. make my own lunch every night

This isn’t really a start now and reach your goal and YEAH YOU’RE FINISHED! kind of goal, but rather an ongoing discipline. But the “Why” of it all is important – the necessity (so to speak).

It’s because I have to. Because my family needs to stay healthy. Because I need to set them up for success – in the near future and the far future.

Life is in a constant state of balancing, of shifting and rearranging priorities, growing and changing and the choices we make every day.

Wanting to be healthy spiritually, mentally and physically, this blog is our quest and journey to be accountable to each other and prayerfully support each other.

Ephesians 5: 15-21 (AMP)

Therefore see that you walk carefully [living life with honor, purpose, and courage; shunning those who tolerate and enable evil], not as the unwise, but as wise [sensible, intelligent, discerning people], making the very most of your time [on earth, recognizing and taking advantage of each opportunity and using it with wisdom and diligence], because the days are [filled with] evil. Therefore do not be foolish and thoughtless, but understand and firmly grasp what the will of the Lord is. Do not get drunk with wine, for that is wickedness (corruption, stupidity), but be filled with the [Holy] Spirit and constantly guided by Him. Speak to one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, [offering praise by] singing and making melody with your heart to the Lord; always giving thanks to God the Father for all things, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ; being subject to one another out of reverence for Christ.

I am a woman, a runner, a reader and a friend, a mother, a wife, a daughter and a sister.

oh, and a wine drinker – hang on a second.

NOW I’m a wine drinking-er.

I’ve been thrust into a transition season in my life and find myself in between jobs and home with my children during summer break. Although the transition came about from a fairly challenging time (let’s just say I’d rather work for the Russian mafia again than repeat the last year and a half). Between this and that and the other thing – I broke a little bit. I know you’re not supposed to admit that and just push through – but I need to be honest with myself and stop pretending it was okay. I don’t want to come through the other side the same. If I acknowledge the crack in my soul, I will find the right repair glue. (It is found in some cultures that when a precious vase is broken it is repaired with glue that dries white so you can see that it survived a crack and repair. and no, I don’t have the exact reference as this is not a book report). I refuse to be bitter and angry and regretful. Instead I choose forgiveness and hope and thankfulness for all that this will work for good.

I think I have come through the “poor me” portion of the healing cycle and have actually started reaching back out to serve and help and love those around me. Part of what I want is to set up a healthier lifestyle for myself and my family. To evolve me into a better myself…and this is the important part: as God directs and gives me the grace for – rather than: TODAY I WILL GET MY ACT TOGETHER!!!!

That often never works btw.

For starters – I will start this blog and document my goals and my process and commit to health and healing and the guidance of the Holy Spirit.

I am determined to claim health daily. I receive wisdom for setting and accomplishing goals and priorities and claim and receive the self discipline and self control I have in me.